shirlyn’s “WoNDeR” land~~~

I had spent my 3 months in a secondary school, S. M. K. La Salle, Klang. For your information, this secondary school is a boy school. I’m sure in your mind will appear something like this, “woo, boy school, sure all the boys very naughty”, or “boy sure everyday fighting”, or even this, “those boys so tall, u can manage meh?” and bla bla bla…

Now I telling u that, La Salle school, although it is a boy school, but then, the boys here are really cute. Haha… funny, is it? Boys, sure will fight, they named the fight as “break dance”… haih~

First day in the class, I really cannot handle them. From the beginning, I dislike to be a teacher. I felt that teacher’s job is a big responsibility, they are everything. Example, teacher is an educator, a parent in school, a nurse, a treasurer, a salesman, a secretary, … almost every job that appear in this world, teacher will do that job in the school. Hmm… but luckily, la sallian gave me the inspiration to continue my journey to be a teacher, and accompany me to be a teacher, teach me how to be a teacher. J Thanks, guys.

 I had to teach biology and physics in this school. I felt happy to have 4U and 4E to be my class.

I want to say thanks to 4U. I know that my English is not really good, but then all of you didn’t complain in front of me, but teach me how to speak English in a right way, especially, both Ashwins, Ashwin Khan and Ashwin Arul, also Joshua Lim and Nicholas Wong. Because of all of you, I can speak English well if compare the days before. And Joshua Lim, your weird questions about biology, letting me know that, your biology really need to upgrade, I won’t be shy with those sensitive questions, I love this kind of questions, it let me thinks a lot, and increased my curiosity.  I will miss u all, 4U. besides that, I want to apologize with ah Gan and Eugene, I didn’t mean it to spread those bad things bout both of you in front other teachers, but I swear, I just let miss Chang knew bout this, other teachers, I didn’t talk a words bout that. Trilokesh, you are such a good sportman. Kuka and the gang, the quietest group in my biology class, the 3 quiet musketeers.  Lionel and the gangs, don’t play your handphone in the class, I saw all of you playing with hand phone many times already at the back, but I just malas to layan. Ramanan and the gang, do your homework always, don’t always think of skipped my class then you can escape from everything for biology, you will do those homework by the end in front of Mr. Loh again. Too many of you in the class, I cannot list out one by one, just want to tell you all, teacher loves all of you. All the best, enjoy your form 4 life at la salle.  Haha~~~

I also want say thanks to 4E, all of you letting me know that, be your class teacher is not a good choice. Haha~ just kidding…

4E let me know that, although they are last form 4 science classes, but they did study hard to score (some of them). In this class, I saw many of you love to sing. I really enjoy it. 4E is the class that I always shout when I get angry. Every time after I shouted at 4E, I will go back and think why I always shout at all of you… then I got the answer… I really care bout all of you. And most of you can study, but just naughty and love to play. I always get scold by others teacher coz being too close with all of you, but then, I felt it is nice to be your friend rather than be your teacher. I felt really happy that I can be your physics teacher, although I’m not a good physics teacher. Thanks coz giving me a chance to teach physics in your class.  You guys asked me to give all of you merit points, but then all of you must behave well in school. I know you guys don’t like to study, but then, at least you can behave well in the school. Don’t smoke, it’s spoilt your health, and girls won’t love their boy friend to smoke, trust me. David and the gang, thanks for the present that you guys gave me. I’ll keep it nicely at Melaka. Both Deepak, don’t always talk inside the class, pay attention, and try to do so. Teven, you are the sportsman in this class, I saw you play hockey last time at basketball court, really nice. Suren and the gang, I just hope that you guys don’t give up. All of you can become good students no matter in academic or koku. I wish all of you, best of luck. I’ll miss all of you.

Also 4C, even though I didn’t teach in your class, but you guys treat me really nice. I’m really happy to be with all of you. Kavin , Deva, Dominique, Vega, Sanjiv, Sugan, Peeraj and the gang, thanks a lot. Eugene oliver, don’t speak too fast, I cannot get your words that fast, speak softly and steady. amirul, thanks a lot for your concern~

Saw, Siddeeq, Saga, Quah, and other, thanks a lot coz willing to share your life with me. Thanks.

Basketball team, although we didn’t have much time to spend with each other, but then, I felt that, we are a family already. We always stand under the hot sun and play basketball, shouting this and that, it was really fun. I had a nice memory with all of you. Although you guys lose in the match, but for me, you guys are the winner. 

KRS… I never dream before that I’ll be in charge with this badan beruniform. It is a new challenge for me. I really got no idea bout KRS when I involved with it. After I tried to be involve in this badan beruniform, “WOW”… it’s great. They are really serious when kawad. They are the best team in perbarisan. All the best for them, hope next time I meet with all of you, I can call u sarjan then.

Oh ya, my lovely Edmund boys. We did spend a lot of time to be together. I’m really happy to be with all of you. And thanks for the snoppy!!!!! I really love her so much. Every night, she is the one to be with me. I’m really proud to be with Edmund. Edmund is the best!!!

And I want to say thanks to the teachers at La Salle. Thanks coz giving me so much advices and I did learn a lot from all of you.

Also, those aunty and uncle at canteen, I love your food. It is so nice and the food always there for me. Haha~

Lovely lab assistance, Kak Long, Kak Nor also Mr. Mahindran and Mr. Majid, I love you guys. All of you giving me supports and let me lepak at bilik persediaan and always gossip this and that. I’ll rememver all of you. God bless you all.

Also, Miss Nadia, you are my best patner ever. Thanks for your help in everything. I miss the times we spend at the shopping, gossip, eating, and blab la bla… thanks a lot. See you in convo~ 

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

当素食者，也有一段时间了。感触特别多~~

哈哈 ^^

很明显的，以前的我，和现在的我，真的有蛮大的变化。不相信？那就看看这两张照片吧~

哈哈 ^^

比起三年前的雏样，现在人看起来也开朗，健康，活力多了~ 脸型也变了。。。 真喜欢现在的我~

和我相处比较久的朋友，也说我的脾气没以前那么暴躁，温和了很多。。。 (虽然，偶尔也会有失控的时候。。。)

说真的，现在的我，很少生病。以前，每逢雨季，伤风感冒，咳嗽，发高烧一定有我的份！ 现在，想生病都难咯~

现在的我，很想学习放下。。。 放下那些我根本不应该那么在意的事和人。她竟然那样对我，我决定放弃了。可能，这是我和她的逆缘。前世的我，福报修得不够好，人缘不那么好。不过，我珍惜我现在拥有的一切，包括朋友，家人，学业，爱情，等等。。。

最近，发生了好多不愉快的事，脑筋不断的想着那些事。弄得身边关心我的朋友都很担心。朋友们，我为我的执着，幼稚向你们道歉。我向你们保证，现在的我，正在慢慢的学习放下那些我一直执着的事。阿弥陀佛，请您大慈大悲指引我如何放下怨恨，贪，嗔，痴，还有一切不好的念头，让我变成一个“人”。 从今开始，我会努力的学习做“人”。

好想骂粗口啊！！！！(虽然我本人不会随便说出来，因为那是没礼貌的。。。毕竟，我是一名老师。。。) 认识我的人都知道，我是不会随便说出口的，除非，我真的忍无可忍可忍了，什么样的粗话，我都不放过！！！

和她认识也有一段时间，间中发生了误会，现在一句话也没有说。。。

昨天，耀文载我大学宿舍，那时已经很夜了！由於，那时真的很夜，耀文又很累，所以，我就建议他在我床上小睡片刻，然后再上路。耀文睡了不到十分钟就被她给吓醒了！她突然起身，很大力的踩地板，然后，很大力的开门，然后开灯，之后很生气的坐在床上读起书来。。。

很好笑~ 她带男朋友回来，就可以睡上几个星期，我的男朋友只是睡那短短的几分钟，她九这么的斤斤计较。。。哇唠噎~ 如果我也学她这么做，我其不是很不得空？?神经病！！！她想做什么我都迁就她，而她。。。

我知道，我也有错。我不应该把耀文带进房间。但是，想要他能睡 得好，唯有把他留在房里休息。。。我这样做，很过分吗？

天啊！我还要忍她多久啊？神经病啊！！！！

朋友，请告诉我，我该怎么办啊？

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I  am with you.

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won’t make you cry.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can’t have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don’t waste your time on a man/woman, who isn’t willing to waste their time on you.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when

we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don’t cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There’s always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting

and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don’t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?

真正朋友: 有幾多人有八位真正的朋友?

Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!

我幾乎不認識這些人! 但在我們當中有些人全有對和好的朋友!!!

happy birthday to ME~~

haha…

i had a great birthday… thanks to my bf, vioon… he did gave me a big surprises… he can start to have his own cookies’ shop le…

and thanks to my mum and dad… without both of u, then i won’t be in this world… also thanks to my siblings… without u, i don’t know how lonely i will be in the house… thanks for ur wishes…

thanks for the gathering dinner…

haha…

thanks to all of my friends…

without all of u, then i will find out that, life is meaningless… u gave me the color to paint up my life. i miss u all…

thanks…

happy birthday to anyone who’s birthday is same with mine…

happy birthday to YOU~~~

take care ah~

我初學佛時，朱鏡宙老居士給我講了一個故事，所講的都是真實事情，這些事在他的著作裡也有記載。民國初年，有一位財主，在清朝時候做的官不小，住在上海租界裡。他有四個姨太太，加上自己的元配夫人，共有五個太太。清朝亡了之後，他就住在租界念佛，做些慈善事業，大家都稱他「善人」。過了幾年他死了，死了之後，四姨太太非常想念他，就去找通靈的人，希望問問他的狀況。正好有一個法國人通靈，能把過世的人找回來與家親眷屬談話，也就是附在人身上說話。

這個通靈的人收費很高，一次要一千塊銀元，這是一個很大的數字，一般人是付不起的。四姨太太付了錢之後，過了三天還沒有消息，就去找通靈的人：「你是不是騙我？」

法國人說：「我絕對不是騙你，我確實去找，找了三天都找不到。」

然後又說：「你們親戚朋友當中，如果有過世的，我再幫你找一個，證明我不是騙你，我只收一半費用。」

正好他們家的大兒子剛過世不久，大兒媳婦就說：「好，你去幫我找我的先生。」

不到幾個小時找到了，他附在人身上，聲音確實是她的大兒子，一點都沒錯。就問他死後的狀況，他跟家裡人談了。

然後又問他：「你的父親到哪裡去了？怎麼找不到？」

他說：「父親墮地獄了。」

家裡人很吃驚，他一生行善、積德，做好事，天天拜佛念經，怎麼會墮地獄？大兒子說在清朝末年的時候，北方有災難，朝廷命他的父親去賑災，他的父親將賑災的錢挪用了一大部分，所以災民得不到賑款，死了很多人，因此墮地獄。他說現在在上海，還有幾個人知道這件事情。於是四姨太太就去找他先生的老朋友，做過欽差大臣也參與賑災的，發現確有此事。但是究竟他有沒有吞沒災款，就不得而知了。後來他自己於心有愧，將吞沒的那些錢拿去做好事，布施、修橋、鋪路，天天拜佛誦 經，仍舊抵不了罪過，還是要墮地獄。

所以，那個法國人的本事，能找到餓鬼道，地獄道就沒有辦法了。這與《地藏經》講的很像，《地藏經》說地獄只有兩種人可以去，一種是菩薩到地獄度眾生，另一種就是有地獄罪業的人；除這兩種人之外，其他人決定見不到地獄。

朱老居士一生親自遇到的這些事情很多，他講業因果報是真實的，決定不是虛妄的。我們懂得這個道理與事實真相，自己起心動念要知道約束，不要認為起個惡念沒有罪，就完全想錯了。大小乘的結罪，經典講得很明白，小乘論事不論心，起心動念不犯戒，不是沒有罪，還是有罪，但是不算犯戒；大乘是起心動念就犯戒，不但有罪又犯戒。這些我們都要明瞭。

（節錄自《華嚴經》12-17-0362）

天地鬼神這些事情，雖然現在人都說是迷信，可是報章雜誌上常有傳聞。最近美國報紙上有一則消息，一位一歲的女孩，能夠講古老的印地安土話，這件事如何解釋？她才一歲，說話還說不清楚，怎麼可能會說古老的印地安語言。而且這個語言現在已經很少人懂得，全美國能懂這個語言的只有十幾個人。後來發現她前生是美國土 著轉世的，這足以證明人有前生、後世，說明輪迴是事實。

古時候，政府官員戴的帽子稱為「進賢冠」。那個帽子像樓梯一樣，前面低，後面高出一層，代表前面是自己，後面是下一代。戴上帽子是提醒自己，希望下一代一定要高過我們這一代，這才是稱職，有成就。如果後面一代跟你差不多，你完全失敗，沒有成績可言。古人穿的衣服、戴的帽子都含有很深的教學意義，佛法講「表 法」，要懂得表法的意思，時時刻刻提醒自己。

我最近遇到小時候的同班同學，關長全先生，他是南京一中的校長，培育出來的學生有一些很有成就，像現在揚州大學的校長就是他的學生。我讚歎他：「你的教育成功」他說：「怎麼說？」我說：「你的學生做大學校長，你不過做中學校長，他超過你，就是你有成就。」

在中國歷史上有很多例子。《了凡四訓》中，袁了凡先生提到建甌（現在的福建）的楊榮。我在建甌住過六年，這個故事我很熟悉，我小時候去他家玩過。楊榮的曾祖父、祖父都是擺渡的，以此謀生。有一年漲大水，許多的村莊被淹沒，淹死了不少人，許多財物隨著洪水到處漂流，有些人划著船去撈取財物。楊榮的曾祖父與祖父 對於財物一無所取，只有救人，積的陰德很大。到他父親的時候，家庭環境逐漸就好轉了，然後生了他。他二十歲考取進士，官做到少師（太子的老師），位列三 公。他對國家有貢獻，所以皇帝加封他的父親、祖父、曾祖父為少師。這就說明先人沒有做到這麼大的榮耀，他做到了，他替父親、祖父、曾祖父做到了。

在佛門裡面，老師有行沒有證，學生能達到信解行證，這是老師的成就。決定不能說，我的父親就是這個樣子，我還能幹什麼？我的老師能說不能行，我也能說不能行就可以了，這樣就一代不如一代，錯了。做學生的千萬不能有錯誤的觀念，老師沒有做到，我為什麼要做？這是個墮落的觀念。老師做不到，我要替他做到，這才是好學生，這個學生才是報恩，報父母恩，報師長恩。我們明白這個道理，自己要爭氣，奮發向上，從此地學習就對了。

(節錄自「善財童子參學報告」12-39-05)

很多人相信乌鸦是只不吉祥的动物，并且相信如果遇到它，会招来厄运，所以，大部分的人都能避开它多远就多远。。。

对我来说，乌鸦令人反感是因为它身上披着的并不是人类喜欢的颜色-黑色，老一辈的长辈都说黑色是不吉祥的颜色，所以我们这些孝顺的孙子们都听取了他们的吩咐，避开乌鸦，免得会变衰。。。自从，我遇到了那件事，我对乌鸦有了不一样的看法。

那天是个下着雨的傍晚，在一个繁忙的大马路上，我看见了两只乌鸦。一只冷冷的躺在马路上，一动也不动的，我相信它已经往生了；而另一只乌鸦，它的体型比较小，它用着它的嘴，奋力的啄着那已往生的乌鸦的脚。你可能会想说它是在吃那往生了的乌鸦，那你就大错特错了！它其实是想把他的同伴搬运到马路的另一端，免得它被车撞得稀巴烂。我有什么证明？故事还没说完呢。。。

雨越下越大，那小乌鸦飞走了。但是它没飞远，它和其它的小乌鸦都站在靠近那往生的乌鸦的灯柱上，久久都不想走。在我的再三怂恿下，我男朋友就下车想帮帮那只小乌鸦完成它的任务。当我男朋友触碰那往生的乌鸦的遗体时，全部的乌鸦都用着怀疑的眼光看着我的男朋友，很想很担心我男朋友会对它们的同伴做些伤害它的行为。个个虎视眈眈。。。那时的我，真的很怕那些乌鸦会对负我男朋友。。。(最近很多新闻都报导乌鸦袭击人类的新闻)。。。但是，那些乌鸦并没有做什么。当我男朋友把那乌鸦埋在另一端的路旁，奇迹发生了。全部的乌鸦飞走了。但是那只小乌鸦还在上空徘徊，似想看看那同伴被埋在哪里。其它的乌鸦都跟着我男朋友后头飞，很想是想和我男朋友道谢。。。哈哈~~~

开心的又做了见好事。。。心情是高兴的 ^^

如果，你是为了帮那乌鸦，它们是能感受到的。它们爱护同伴的精神，我们人类永远都比不上。乌鸦不会随便袭击人，除非你曾经伤害它或它的同伴。乌鸦也和我们人类一样，是有感觉的动物。

请爱护它们，不要伤害它们。

阿弥陀佛~~